Not sure what is wrong. Seems a little worse than normal. When I read the picture I posted I think people who have battled depression might actually be able to look back on a time when they were happy.
I read it and I immediately thought that I don’t remember when that might be. I remember when I was 11 and sitting on my bed in my room alone and thinking there was something wrong with me and I just wanted to sit in there all alone. I am 52 and I still feel like that most of the time.
Happy days? I have had them. One here, one there. Days I have spent crying or simply lonely even though people are around are far more easy to remember.
I am happier left to myself. Is that ok? It seems like the world tells you that you must be surrounded by others to really be happy. Then again, why listen to this world? I cut myself off from this world because I do not feel apart of this horrible and wicked place. I don’t see a future for myself. No family around. Most people my age are wrapped up in grandchildren. Mine live far away and don’t even know me with the exception of hoping for $$ from that lady who always sends it at my birthday and at Christmas.
I know…I know….don’t go quoting scripture. I won’t go and kill myself. I have hope in Jesus Christ. If I had no hope then I certainly would not still be here. I assure you it would be pointless. I have hope. I am currently having a really hard time showing that hope right now. That distresses me even more because I don’t want to disappoint God. I know this is not His desire for me. Yet, this world is sick and it sickens me. It vexes my soul to the core. Should I not be full of joy of the Lord?
I really don’t even know what to say.
Pray for me please.
The scriptures are clear. How easily we can kid or should I say lie to ourselves not to mention others. Scripture tells us that our very own hearts deceive us. We cannot be trusted even to ourselves. Put your trust in the only one that has the power to save you. Jesus Christ is His name! So EASY for us (I have been guilty too), for us to throw stones at Kathy. I mean she makes it so easy. She needs Jesus Christ, she needs to repent and we do too. We should all be praying for ourselves AND for Kathy Griffin. Instead of stoning her. Yes, she needs to be called out for her actions and that’s been done. Now let’s all pray for her and pray she comes out of the darkness and sees herself for what she has become. Pray she stops making excuses to others but is first honest with herself. Right now she is being deceived by her very own heart as most of us from one degree or another. It is a heart issue.
Proverbs 16:9 (flesh leads us our way but the Spirit of God leads us to life)
A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps.
Jeremiah 17:9-10 (we are easily deceived unless we stay in the word of God to be able to know and discern the truth even in our hearts)
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked :who can know it?
I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.
Deuteronomy 30:6 (tells us the why)
And the LORD thy God will circumcise (means to cut away all the wickedness ) thine heart, and the heart of thy seed, to love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live.
Matthew 22:37-38 (backs up old testament law)
Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. 38- This is the first and great commandment.
For as many as have sinned without law shall also perish without law: and as many as have sinned in the law shall be judged by the law; (For not the hearers of the law are just before God, but the doers of the law shall be justified. For when the Gentiles, which have not the law, do by nature the things contained in the law, these, having not the law, are a law unto themselves: Which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean while accusing or else excusing one another;) In the day when God shall judge the secrets of men by Jesus Christ according to my gospel.
Today we see again that God is writing the “requirements of the law” on the hearts of people. This is the Holy Spirit of God transcribing on our hearts how we ought to live – by grace through faith in Jesus Christ. A day is coming when God will judge people’s secrets through Jesus Christ, and there will be absolutely no excuses on that day. We will not be able to say, “but Jesus, I…” and talk our way out of what is already plainly known. None of us are without conscience, which according to this verse bears witness impacting judgment. The Holy Spirit is not going to lead us down a path that lives a life “secret” from God (as if that is even possible). The power of God is at work showing your life for what it is, and we have choices of how we will respond to those revelations. Will we choose the light, or will we choose the shadows?
Verse/Commentary courtesy of ‘Verse-A-Day’
Preaching for this generation.
Are you ready?
Dear God have mercy on those of us who say we know You. Dear Father in Heaven, please show all of us by your Holy Spirit where we are lacking and open our eyes to things needing addressed, needing repented of, a change of heart. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ I ask and give thanks for it. AMEN
“Obama’s “Antichrist” Legacy”
Hatred stirreth up strifes:
But love covereth all sins.
1 Peter 3:15
But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the HOPE that is in you with meekness and fear:
How can we have hope. I know more days than not it is tough to find it and hang onto it throughout the day. Holding onto it simply for your own sanity without trying to put a smile on your face and convincing others you have hope! Right? Can anyone relate to what I am saying?
Well, first off we have NO HOPE if we are looking to this messed up world to provide it for us. This place gets more hopeless by the day! We first must know God! We must know His word and seek Him daily.
Let’s see what the infallible word of God has to say regarding hope.
1 Thessalonians 2:19
For what is our hope, or joy, or crown of rejoicing? Are not even ye in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ at his coming?
I find it interesting that in the verse just before 19, the end of verse 18 it says….
But Satan hindered us.
Paul is telling his brothers and sisters that he would have come to them to continue to encourage them and help them but he has been hindered by Satan and that this was temporary and he cannot be with them in presence but HE IS WITH THEM IN HEART.
THEN, he asks for what is our HOPE, or joy, or crown of rejoicing? THEN he asks, are not even ye in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ at His coming?
I glean from this that our HOPE is not in our ever changing circumstances of our lives where we may find ourselves or those we love being hindered by Satan for a brief time. NO, NO, our HOPE is in KNOWING we will be in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ at His coming.
Do you believe He is coming? If you do then that is certainly our hope. If you don’t believe it then you need to begin by asking the Lord to help you in your unbelief. Ask Jesus Christ to show you, to teach you, to reveal Himself to you as only He can.
Let’s see what else the word of God has to say.
1 Thessalonians 4:13-18
But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have NO HOPE.
For IF we BELIEVE that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him.
For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive and remain unto the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep.
For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first:
Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord.
Wherefore COMFORT one another with these words.
YES…YES, brothers and sisters! Now that is the HOPE I am talking about! We cannot expect to have hope in the things we see around us in this world, but if we keep our minds on the things above we can have hope knowing the Lord God WILL do what He has said He would do!
1 Thessalonians 5:8-11
But let us, who are of the day, be sober, putting on the breastplate of faith and love; and for an helmet, the HOPE of SALVATION.
For God hath not appointed us to wrath, but to OBTAIN SALVATION by our Lord Jesus Christ,
Who died for us, that, whether we wake or sleep, we should live together with him.
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ENDING WITH THESE WORDS.
If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.
Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.
For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.
When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory.
Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.
And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.