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Not sure what is wrong.  Seems a little worse than normal.  When I read the picture I posted I think people who have battled depression might actually be able to look back on a time when they were happy.

I read it and I immediately thought that I don’t remember when that might be.  I remember when I was 11 and sitting on my bed in my room alone and thinking there was something wrong with me and I just wanted to sit in there all alone.  I am 52 and I still feel like that most of the time. 

Happy days?  I have had them.  One here, one there.  Days I have spent crying or simply lonely even though people are around are far more easy to remember.

I am happier left to myself.  Is that ok?  It seems like the world tells you that you must be surrounded by others to really be happy.  Then again, why listen to this world?  I cut myself off from this world because I do not feel apart of this horrible and wicked place.  I don’t see a future for myself.  No family around.  Most people my age are wrapped up in grandchildren.  Mine live far away and don’t even know me with the exception of hoping for $$ from that lady who always sends it at my birthday and at Christmas. 

I know…I know….don’t go quoting scripture.  I won’t go and kill myself.  I have hope in Jesus Christ.  If I had no hope then I certainly would not still be here.  I assure you it would be pointless.  I have hope.  I am currently having a really hard time showing that hope right now.  That distresses me even more because I don’t want to disappoint God.  I know this is not His desire for me.  Yet, this world is sick and it sickens me.  It vexes my soul to the core.  Should I not be full of joy of the Lord? 

Sorry guys.

I really don’t even know what to say.

Pray for me please.

Just Walking in the Shade – I Mean the Shadow 

The scriptures are clear.  How easily we can kid or should I say lie to ourselves not to mention others.  Scripture tells us that our very own hearts deceive us. We cannot be trusted even to ourselves.   Put your trust in the only one that has the power to save you.   Jesus Christ is His name!   So EASY for us (I have been guilty too), for us to throw stones at Kathy.   I mean she makes it so easy.  She needs Jesus Christ,  she needs to repent and we do too.  We should all be praying for ourselves AND for Kathy Griffin.   Instead of stoning her.  Yes, she needs to be called out for her actions and that’s been done.   Now let’s all pray for her and pray she comes out of the darkness and sees herself for what she has become.   Pray she stops making excuses to others but is first honest with herself.   Right now she is being deceived by her very own heart as most of us from one degree or another. It is a heart issue.  

Proverbs 16:9  (flesh leads us our way but the Spirit of God leads us to life)

A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps. 

Jeremiah 17:9-10 (we are easily deceived unless we stay in the word of God to be able to know and discern the truth even in our hearts)

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked :who can know it? 

I the LORD search the heart,  I try the reins,  even to give every man according to his ways,  and according to the fruit of his doings. 

Deuteronomy 30:6 (tells us the why)

And the LORD thy God will circumcise  (means to cut away all the wickedness ) thine heart, and the heart of thy seed,  to love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live. 

Matthew 22:37-38 (backs up old testament law)

Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.  38- This is the first and great commandment. 

Romans 2:12-16

For as many as have sinned without law shall also perish without law: and as many as have sinned in the law shall be judged by the law;  (For not the hearers of the law are just before God, but the doers of the law shall be justified.  For when the Gentiles, which have not the law, do by nature the things contained in the law, these, having not the law, are a law unto themselves:  Which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean while accusing or else excusing one another;)  In the day when God shall judge the secrets of men by Jesus Christ according to my gospel.

COMMENTARY 

Today we see again that God is writing the “requirements of the law” on the hearts of people. This is the Holy Spirit of God transcribing on our hearts how we ought to live – by grace through faith in Jesus Christ. A day is coming when God will judge people’s secrets through Jesus Christ, and there will be absolutely no excuses on that day. We will not be able to say, “but Jesus, I…” and talk our way out of what is already plainly known. None of us are without conscience, which according to this verse bears witness impacting judgment. The Holy Spirit is not going to lead us down a path that lives a life “secret” from God (as if that is even possible). The power of God is at work showing your life for what it is, and we have choices of how we will respond to those revelations. Will we choose the light, or will we choose the shadows?

Verse/Commentary courtesy of ‘Verse-A-Day’ 

John Haller’s Prophecy Update “Israel Trip” May 28th, 2017

Middle – East Prophecy Update – April 9,2017 Pastor JD Farag 

John Haller’s Prophecy Update “Webs of Lies and Ties” March 19th, 2017

Justice 

Luke 18:1-8
And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint;  Saying, There was in a city a judge, which feared not God, neither regarded man:  And there was a widow in that city; and she came unto him, saying, Avenge me of mine adversary.  And he would not for a while: but afterward he said within himself, Though I fear not God, nor regard man;  Yet because this widow troubleth me, I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me.  And the Lord said, Hear what the unjust judge saith.  And shall not God avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them?  I tell you that he will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?

COMMENTARY 

Today we have a story of a judge who is “unjust”. The end of this parable finds the corrupt judge granting justice to a widow who simply would not stop bothering him. She does not find justice in her situation because the judge’s heart turns around, but because of her persistence. The question on the table is: Do you believe that God will give you justice? This passage promises that God gives justice to “his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night”, and that he will do it quickly. Are you willing to believe that today and live in a way that reflects that you trust God completely with justice? When we are hurt or wronged, and wish to seek retribution – we either take matters into our own hands, or we release matters into God’s. Let Him take the lead on justice, and allow Him to work forgiveness in your heart.

Verse/Commentary courtesy of ‘Verse-A-Day’ android app.

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Middle-East Prophecy Update  January 22nd, 2017 Pastor JD Farag 

Middle-East Prophecy Update – January 8th, 2017 Pastor JD Farag 

Not much time to wake from your slumber. The bridegroom is on the way!  

Middle-East Prophecy Update – December 11th, 2016  Pastor JD Farag 

Middle – East Prophecy Update, Pastor JD Farag & Amir Tsarfati – End Days? August 2016

Prepare to be blessed! 

Guest Speaker Amir Tsarfati: Are You Ready?

Chooses Differently than We Would?

I probably would have said, “if they they drink like dogs then send them home and take the rest into battle. ” Maybe another reason we should pray about things before doing anything because God’s decisions often differ greatly from what makes sense to us.

Judges 7:3-7
Now announce to the army, ‘Anyone who trembles with fear may turn back and leave Mount Gilead.’” So twenty-two thousand men left, while ten thousand remained.  But the Lord said to Gideon, “There are still too many men. Take them down to the water, and I will thin them out for you there. If I say, ‘This one shall go with you,’ he shall go; but if I say, ‘This one shall not go with you,’ he shall not go.”  So Gideon took the men down to the water. There the Lord told him, “Separate those who lap the water with their tongues as a dog laps from those who kneel down to drink.”  Three hundred of them drank from cupped hands, lapping like dogs. All the rest got down on their knees to drink.  The Lord said to Gideon, “With the three hundred men that lapped I will save you and give the Midianites into your hands. Let all the others go home.”

Commentary
The Lord can and will do much with little. Here we see God, systematically and deliberately, thin out the ranks that are with Gideon. Out of 32,000 men, the Lord sends 31,700 home. Keep in mind that these are battle preparations, and God is thinning Israel’s ranks. Reducing the number is about placing the glory of the Lord on display. This is about bringing Gideon through a fiery trial of faith that will produce fruit always in his life. Israel is about to see, again, that their God is faithful and awesome…something they had forgotten as a nation.

Verse/Commentary courtesy of ‘Verse-A-Day’ android app.
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